.....MY LIVE.....

 every day do t same job. already 4 mnth. never do t othr job. so boring, i think 1 day i can do my job wif close eyes. is she think i'm stpid? why she give t job as same level wit no graduate pple. very anoying when pple ask. i aslo cant aplly waht ever tahht i already study. i very fedup. i want to go ot from that co very soon

 before tis i think study is t most boring thing. but now.... i think stdy is t most best thing. bcz.... when study, we can do many thing. but if u work... everyday  will do t same thing all over. 1st time u work, u will like it.... but after a week u will fedup do t same thing. i rally tired. if u get nice boss, its good. but if  get very stict boss, u will stress. i will like if my boss is not coming 2 t office. i like it. bcz  when boss come, t office will be messy,  i will stress. next week will start OT. i dont know what 2 do... help me.... i have 4 months more.  my father ask me 2 work at there. but i dont want..... i dont know what 2 do....

yesterday my last ppr. really scared even t ppr is not so hard. i cant sleep... very nervous 2 take t exam.. but i still answr all t question... i finsh early 15 min befre end.

 that evening i clen up all my things.... my room very messy... cant be imagine. my romate jz ignore it. unti night i did it, bt still not done.

this morning i want 2 continue clen up al t things. i hope i mange 2 done all this things. bcz umi & abi will come late of today. 

i dont know how to clean al of things. i look... my room become more messy. if mother look, sure she will shock. 

amad will brng 2 bags, my things? very many... what want 2 do? i dont know.. then, abi brings t.mak. umi said lets abi think... we dont have 2 said anything. bcz all of it is abi's ideas. his idea make othrs pple become more worried. i dont know... very nervous to back. bcz have 2 do many things.

i have 2 big bags & t others is small back (5). 

less than 1 mnth left.... tomrrw start 1st paper 4 final exam, very nervous..... what i want 2 do? day aftr tmrrw is t 2nd paper. both of t paper is t hard paper 4 tis sem. really scared.... jz tis 1 mnth. after tis... idont have 2 come 2 uum 2 study anymore... aftr tis practcl... then.... i want get a job... very scared..... wish me good lck 4 my exam....

why i always do t same thing everyday???? i dont like it... but what i want 2 do? really boring. i dont have anyone 2 do t other thing. everyone gone... so boring..... wht i want 2 do??? i dont want do t same thing. i want change....

am i like a kid??? why others see me as a kid.. am i not matured???? i really hate it. whtever i do... pple will see me as a kid. i think i want maintain it... even i change, nothing happen... better didnt do anything. hish.... so boring... sometimes be a kid is very fun.... has many benefit... but some times very boring. especially pple didnt see us.

what i want 2 do???

why we need fren? are they can b trust? why cant we live alone?

why tis happen??? i already send t regstrn form 4 samurai sudoku. suddenly.... when 1st draft exam out, t day of t contest clash wif my exam paper. what tis hapen.???? tis yr i cant join it. umi & kakak enter. me??? i really want..... i hope when t real schedule out, no class with the contest date.

why tis sem is so messes? i already enter sudoku competition 4 tis sem. but suddnly i saw that last paper is 25 nov. t compttn at 23 nov. what i want 2 do now? why all happen 2 me? bef tis my co 4 prctcl. i cant take it anymore. very hard 4 me. i think i will crazy i day, if all that i want didnt get. ofcourse i will choose exam, more imprtnt. but why prctcl place cant be change? really make me crazy.

what will do if 2 hav 2 to choose? what u will do? why tis happen 2 me? wht will happen if i choose 2 do it? hav 2 do somthing that very extreme? until u shame 2 go 2 school? hav u? i dont want 2 do it. i rather ignore it from do it. my life is so.... difficlt & hav many thing 2 do it. what happen if u want something, but u get t other things. what will do? i think it was very diff 2 get co 4 prctcl. but very contrary, now i have 2 co. 1 uil search 4 me. t othr 1, 1 go 2 t co. t co that intvw me, really want 2 take me, but suddnly tis happen. why always happen this type of thing. why so diff 4 me? i know... at 1st i t one who want dar from house. then when i got my co, uil didnt give me to chage t co. why??? why last sem very esay 4 pple 2 change t co's prctcl? why very hard 4 me? i want save t money. why very diff?????